Recently i arrived at my heart in a way that i don't remember since i was a child
i brought into it such awareness and let the vulnerabilities fly
let them just surface
as i had read in a book recently
to let the heart be so tender that a mosquito could land on it and you would feel the intense weight of it's love
mmm
so i sat there
letting it bubble up
very uncomfortable
very much wanting to distract myself or push it back in
but i didn't
and it enabled the most healing experience of my life
and upon talking i healed my relationship and so much more

i found my heart.
Suddenly i felt like i haven't since i was 5, now i feel love like i was 16 and i feel like it's simply the beginning.
I feel like only now I am seeing love more and thus so much is flushing out, so much is being reapproached with love and patience, with the intent to let the past go and truly be accepting of the present. Being accepting of others not in a way that fits into my minds projections but way beyond, into who they are, beyond all my boundries, beyond my perception. Allowing the great vastness of all of creation to seep in, to be humbled and know that there is so much more to learn from everyone and everything and that judgement and projection...that loosing receptivity is simply a path into misery....

mmm.

this heart is waking up but it is only the beginning, over and over, because love is what fills life constantly with newness, therefore each step is the beginning over and over, and how beautiful it is...

the end of the road is letting go, is turning inside and seeing more, the end of the road for me was these things, and now i see so clearly how much had to be let go in order to love in the first place....and i know there is only deeper and deeper levels....it is so beautiful, it is so divine....our hearts are our greatest teachers once we simply let them express,,...release....and we listen and act on them.......

mmmmm